Kirtan Guide
Āmāra jīvana
- āmāra jīvana, sadā pāpe rata,
- nāhiko puṇyera leśa
- porere udvega, diyāchi je koto,
- diyāchi jīvere kleśa
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My life is always attached to sinful activity and there is not even a small part of goodness in it. I have caused others anxiety and given trouble to other souls.
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2
- nija sukha lāgi’, pāpe nāhi ḍori,
- dayā-hīna svārtha-paro
- para-sukhe duḥkhī, sadā mithya-bhāṣī,
- para-duḥkha sukha-kara
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For the sake of my own happiness I have openly performed sinful activity. Devoid of compassion, I am concerned only with my own selfish interests. Always telling lies, I become miserable to see the happiness of others, while the misery of others brings great happiness to me.
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3
- aśeṣa kāmanā, hṛdi mājhe mora,
- krodhī, dambha-parāyana
- mada-matta sadā, viṣoye mohita,
- hiṁsā-garva vibhūṣana
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There are limitless material desires within the core of my heart. I am full of anger, attached to arrogance, intoxicated by vanity, and always bewildered by enjoying sense objects. Violence and pride are my ornaments.
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4
- nidrālasya hata, sukārje virata,
- akārje udyogī āmi
- pratiṣṭha lāgiyā, śāṭhya-ācharaṇa,
- lobha-hata sadā kāmī
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Ruined by laziness and sleep, I resist all pious deeds, yet am very enthusiastic to perform wicked acts. For the sake of worldly fame and reputation I engage in the practice of deceitfulness. I am always lustful and a victim of my own greed.
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5
- e heno durjana, sajjana-varjita,
- aparādhi nirantara
- śubha-kārja-śūnya, sadānartha-manāḥ,
- nānā duḥkhe jara jara
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A vile, wicked man such as this, rejected by saintly persons, is a constant offender, devoid of auspicious works, always in the mentality of separate interest, and wasted away by various kinds of miseries.
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6
- bārdhakye ekhona, upāya-vihīna,
- tā’te dīna akiñchana
- bhakativinoda, prabhura charaṇe,
- kore duḥkha nivedana
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Now in old age, deprived of all means of relief, thus humbled and destitute, this Bhakti Vinod submits his tale of grief at the feet of the Supreme Lord.